BusyBusyBusy.

I'm going to be busy soon.

And screw my computer jammed.

I hope ALL of my files won't go missing.

Stupid virus. Leave my poor computer alone. Heh.

So far, I'm forcing and trying to make myself happy at the moment.

With Christmas coming, I wouldn't want it to be like last year.

When I have to go through TOO much sucky, painful moments. T.T

I wouldn't want to get through it no longer.

I hope that this year, Christmas would be as what I expect it would be.

Or maybe at least it would be not as miserable as it was last year. Tsk.

Currently forcing myself to learn some songs on the piano.

Something to get me out from the computer. And from everything.

Would be updating soon :)

p/s : I guess I'm missing everyone in school now.

Afah, Chelsea, Phong, Alex, Sharon, I'm missing you guys a lot :(

And it's the same for the rest too.

Kristi's coming back this Saturday. Can't wait to see her again.

p/ps : Something had change currently.

And I can't get my mind out of it at all.

Please change back, so I won't go wondering about it ever again.

p/p/ps : Happy 15th birthday Hazelin Ng :)

On The Line

RULES.

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, Realplayer etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW SILLY it sounds.

4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

5. For best results, put in various songs from various singers at least 50 songs.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"... you say?

Wonder Girls - Nobody [WTH? Haha.]

2. How could you describe yourself?

Girls Generation - Honey [HAHA.]

3. What do you like in a girl/boy?

Dong Bang Shin Ki - Mirotic [Aiseh manns! So cun.]

4. How do you feel today?

Park Bom - You and I [Haha. NO way.]

5. What is your life's purpose?

Kara - Wanna [What is this suppose to mean? HAHA.]

6. What is your motto?

ShiNEE - Replay [My motto is Replay everyone :D]

7. What do your friends think of you?

Jisun - What Should I do [Aiseh so sad.]

8. What do you think of your parents?

Incubus - Drive

9. What do you think about very often?

Sandara ft CL - Kiss [WTFH? Apa ya?]

10. What is 2 + 2?

HSM 3 - Can I Have This Dance [So tak kena mengena la.]

11. What do you think of your best friend?

Paramore - Ignorance [LAWL. Afah, ignorance?]

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Corbin Bleu ft Vanessa Hudgens - Still There For Me [Aiseh, so cun. Haha.]

13. What is your life story?

SuneoHair - Waltz [Rasa Honey and Clover eh. Haha.]

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

4 Minute - What A Girl Wants [Anything that a girl wants? Haha.]

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Kings Of Leon - Use Somebody [WTH? 0.o]

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Super Junior - Sorry Sorry [SO COOL. HAHA!]

17. What is your hobby/interest?

ShiNEE - Ring Ding Dong [LAWL, together with Min Ho, ring ding dong all the way :D]

18. What is your biggest fear?

Boys Like Girls ft Taylor Swift - Two Is Better Than One [Apakah?]

19. What is your biggest secret?

Kara - Honey [Haha, I LOVE honey :D]

20. What do you think of your friends?

Kara - Mister [Butt dance. ROFL.]

21. What will you post this as?

Demi Lovato - On The Line [WTH? WHY?]

I feel so much better now.

Well that's the least I could think.

Heh. Well then I'll be busy starting this week.

With our upcoming Christmas combined service, with Christmas Party.

With caroling practices. With youth practices.

The same routines only this time it's gonna be different.

I bet I won't be loving the moment.

Kristi coming back on the 12th.

Youth Practices on the 14th till the 19th.

Christmas Party on the 19th.

Christmas Combined Service on the 17th.

Caroling starts on the 18th till I don't know yet.

Youth Bbq not sure.

PMR results coming out on the 27 or the 28th. Fcuk.

There's more. Just wait and see.

p/s : FCUK. My phone spoilt! Mcb.

A year older.

Happy birthday dearest cousin Gina :)

You're 8 today!

So sorry couldn't come over and hang out with you and the rest.

Would go out with you and Kevin and Trisha on Thursday :)

I love you little one :D

I should do this.

I hate it when we stop talking and it end up you saying sorry,

when I didn't bother to talk to you no longer.

I hate it when you started texting and my credit went zero. Fcuk.

I hate it when you told someone else and they're not even close to you,

about something I should know. Something that your best friends should know too.

I hate it when you said you trust me and not them, but still why didn't you told

me about it since you mentioned that you trust me and not them?

I hate it when I have to find it out from them and not from you yourself.

I hate it when suddenly a person said I shouldn't be talking about it,

and I should not tell anyone about it.

Well then I won't bother talking about it no longer, okay?

And I wouldn't bother telling anyone else cause there's no point of me doing it

at ALL.

Haizs. I'm not blaming you no longer.

I won't bother about this no more.

You decide what so ever you want to do in your life now.

Because I have no rights to do it. I'm not you. You know yourself better.

And I don't. So fine.

Things happen already, I can't turn back time.

There's no use of me being mad any longer. I find it stupid and pointless.

Being mad won't change anything. Haizs.

I seriously don't know what to say any longer.

And fcuk NO. I'm not being fcuking emo here.

I'm just a sad person with a bad life.

That feeling.

i feel hopeless.

depressed.

everything :(

I won't say a word.

So days passed, and I'm still feeling down.

I seriously should stop it, before I get any sicker again.

But I couldn't. I know I won't.

So it seems like I have to pretend like nothing happen.

But I doubt that I can pretend that long, cause sooner or later,

I'll break down and start being depressed.

And I don't want that.

Just so you know,

I won't say a word no longer.

I don't think I could bother talking about it anymore.

Or even try bringing it up again.

Cause you know why?

I never thought it would even happen.

But I guess I was wrong wrong wrong the whole time.

Somebody shoot me. Haizs.

I can't stop you from doing anything.

Cause it's your life, I would't want to bother that much.

Your choice. Your decision. Your life.

I wasn't suppose to know it anyway.

Moving on.

Currently, drama of lying is so over now.

Well that's the least I could think? Heh.

Shoot me like NOW.

Everything is seriously testing my patience.

I don't know who the fcuk am I suppose to trust. Like seriously.

Heh. I feel like punching, slapping, everything to that person.

Mcb like seriously lah you.

Why do you have to lie?

Why do you have to create those stupid fcuktard lies?

Why do you have to talk bad behind me?

Why didn't you tell me the truth?

What am I to you?

I look up to you, and this is what I get?

Bloody shit lah you.

I knew something else again today.

And it hurts me so much, I don't think I could ever bother talking to that person.

I can't believe that it would happen anyway.

I felt stupid now anyway.

GAH!

I never thought that this day would come.

Haizs. So super sad. I feel like dying.

I wish that everyone could just tell me the truth now.

Cause those lies that you all made is hurting me so much.

I bet the truth hurts more.

But it's better than a lie right? :(((

You stupid mean heartless beast person.

Stop playing with my heart.

//you're breaking it to pieces, and it hurts me so much when i found out it's you.//

Confused.

This shall be my ranting post for today.

And I know Tiffany, my post all so emo.

Cause currently my life so seriously freakishly SAD.

WTFH.

Can someone SERIOUSLY FREAKISHLY tell me,

who the fcuking hell is telling me the truth now?

Can you tell me?

Stop telling me all sorts of LIES, you damn it.

WTFH do you have to that for?

It's not like you're gonna get a prize or something, dumb ass.

You're just gonna loose your friends, your CLOSEST friends.

Because of your damn fcuking childish lies.

Stop telling me your stupid lies lah, it's not like I'm going to believe you now.

Damn, bitch.

You can go rot in hell.

And I feel so fcuking piss off with you every single minute I type a word here.

I seriously don't know who the fcuk am I suppose to believe now.

Like seriously I DON'T.

Back back back.

Finally back.

But too bad, I won't update now.

SOON la. Haha.

New Moon.

I'll be posting this quick, cause I want to hit the sack.

I have sore-throat.

A fever. Flu. And non-stop cough.

So here goes.

Oh yeah, I watch this today :)

With Sharon, Afah and Claudia.

Chelsea and Phong couldn't join us, so sad :(

I owe them both movie tickets now. Haha. I'll repay you both soon okay?

Thanks again for the gift Chelsea, Donna and Syaza :)

[SO SORRY.]

[I don't bother to blog about this ANY LONGER.]

MBO.

I feel like KILLING that site.

Stupid SITE.

I've been waiting for it to UPDATE since just now.

And guess what?

IT NEVER DID.

Dear MBO site,

please update your site.

I swear I won't sleep well tonight, because I'll be thinking about it.

And you want to know why?

Cause I scared they won't be any seats [And yes Afah, I got it right this time.]

LEFT. Heh T.T

I'm hoping for a miracle now, to happen.

Today?

I miss Panthea :)

I miss Sharon, with her super loud laughter.

I miss Chelsea, with our never-ending talk.

I miss Phong, with her super loud loud voice.

I miss Afah, with her gila ness every single day.

I miss Alex, with her never-ending stories.

I want to hang out with all of them :(

And yes, today I feel so sad.

Shoot me.

Shoot me.

I feel like jumping of from a cliff right now.

Life is being hard for me now.

Za can't book the tickets.

Now I have to go off early and book.

I'm praying hard, that they would still be sits left.

I hope everything turns out okay that day.

Sighed.

Rise and Shine.

Pictures from the concert last night.

We took so few. Heh.



I can see Alynna from here :)



Becca, Sasha, Cynthia, Kimberly :)



Menda, Becca, Sasha, Cynthia, Kimberly.

My Video buddie :)

Take one.

Take two.



Take three.
Both satisfied :)

And I just notice-

-that every time I came back from a youth concert,

I'll start listening to Christians songs.

And I wouldn't bother about anything else.

And now I should sign out, and leave. 4 posts a day, is enough.

Chelsea, update your blogger :)

Today today TODAY.

What's gonna happen today?

The urge to blog.

Yeah. My head hurts alright.

Right here, right now.

Just came back from a youth concert last night.

Organized by the ACS people.

The same concert we Sunday School youth

participate last year. Only last year seems much more fun.

This year was just different. Maybe because there's no much presentation.

Heh, but it was fun though.

Especially when you hang out with friends.

I finally hang out with Alex, ever since the holidays had started.

And also, I finally had the chance to meet Barry. He told me he can't come.

But he was forced by Alex and Roy to come. Haha. So mean.

Barry first question, is that guy here?
Heh. Of course he was. But no way I'm showing you who is it :)

So far, I'm enjoying life, while I'm still breathing on earth.

So yeah, I won't want to spoil the night by showing you that heart breaker.

Maybe next time? Haha.

I'll blog when Menda and Sasha had already posted up the pictures.

I can't wait for 26th. Like seriously. 3 more days left.

I'm off watching New Moon with beloved peeps :)

I can't wait.

p/s : Alex!

After you come back from the Empowered Camp,

we must hang out okay? :)

Didn't get to talk to you that much just now.

You owe me lots and lots of story. Haha :)

p/p/s : Afah, you seriously should had been there.

Then you can laugh your heads off with me.

So funny.

I'm pretty sure your phone inbox is loaded with my messages :)

MAMA awards.

And no, this is not some Mother awards. Haha.

MAMA stands for,

Mnet's Asia Music Awards.

Afah so seriously lucky cause she get to watch it last night.

While me? I'm stuck at home watching it ONLINE now.

Line so laggish.

Here's some of my current favs :)

Kara ft Dr. Core. Honey Rock version. So cool :)

2ne1. I don't care. 21st Street style.

Sandara Park. Kiss.

Those 3 are so far my favourite, for now :)

Oh dear internet line, stop being so laggish.

Dumb-ass.

Hey you, dumb ass.

What the fcuking hell is wrong with you?

I thought that everything would be like freaking over by then.

But NO. You stupid person have to MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE.

Did I even BOTHER IN YOUR STUPID life?

No right? If I did then TOO BAD lah.

Why bother mine then?

For God sake, DID I TELL THE WHOLE WORLD,

THAT YOU'RE DATING YOUR OWN COUSIN?

No right?

Then why the FCUKING hell do you have to tell people about

something that I NEVER SAID AT ALL?

Bloody bitch. You should go to hell and rot there.

Hate it.

I would love to thank Afah for being nice to me :)

I HATE it when I don't have credit at ALL.

Heh. Stupid birthday bonus.

I can only text my 8-pax number. T.T

The rest, CANNOT.

Which means, I could only text Afah.

And yeah, Afah only :)

So well, thanks to Afah, my message was sent.

Cause she help me message back whoever that person that text me.

THANK YOU!

And to Alex, so sorry can't reply your 4-5 message. T.T

I seriously need to top up my credit.

I'm going tonight by the way :)

Am down with a migraine, yet I'm still here.

Online-ing. Heh.

Fifteen.

Hey everyone :)

Thanks for all the wishes, I appreciate it A LOT :)

I'm finally fifteen. And yeah.

Can't believe that it's already the 20th today.

Thanks Phong, Chelsea, Sonia, Panthea, Sharon, Farah, Aryna, Afah and Pete

for those messages :)

Haha :)

I can't wait for the upcoming concert this Sunday.

And yeah, NEXT WEEK too.

New Moon here we come :D

Time to update.

Time to seriously update.

I've been leaving this blog, for quite long.

So how was holidays?

Bad. Horrible. So insanely BORING.

I'm finally going out tomorrow. To--

photo state some music scores,

to pay the school a visit.

And go back home. So much for going out huh?

But never mind, I must have patience :)

I'm turning 15 soon. Oh no.

Time flies, fast.

I'm missing Afah, Alex, Phong, Chelsea and Sharon :(

WTFH.

Mother fcuker. WTFH.

Where's my FREAKING freedom?

You let my brother go wherever he wants, and NOW

you won't even let me go out on my BIRTHDAY?

Screw you like seriously.

I felt like strangling a person.

Even better, if only I could murder a person, I WOULD.

But no, I won't. I may be piss off, but that's over reacting. TOO over reacting.

Screw EVERYTHING.

And NOW, THIS?

EH, you SICK is it?

Something is SERIOUSLY wrong with your bloody brain cells.

EVERYTHING that I DIDN'T DO AT ALL,

you thought that I DID IT.

If you're thinking that I would TRY TO TAKE ANYONE FROM YOU,

or WHAT SO EVER THAT CAME IN YOUR BRAIN,

well THINK AGAIN CREEP,

I'm NOT at ALL.

Let me tell you a story--

Screw, I miss school.

Like seriously.

Not going to school means no--

- FUN. YEAH!

- No going out--as in Mcd, Parkson those places.

- No staying back. O.o

- No FUN. Screw the boring-ness.

I can't believe that I would actually miss school that much.

Well maybe, it is because I won't get the chance to do it again next year.

Couldn't blame me, blame the school. They're making it single session next year.

Screw SINGLE session, and we only had like half an hour to have our lunch.

Cause after that, it's our so called fun curiculum where we get to play sports,

and march our hearts out.

Breaking news, I'm doing this as a favor for a friend.

The Pariah made her hair as straight as a ruler now.

I'm not kidding, I would love to post a picture here, but that might as well revealing the

identity on whose the Pariah.

[Btw, The Pariah is a nickname which Afah created for her to cover her identity

in her blog, so I might as well use it too :) ]

So I'm so not gonna post a picture. Haha.

Well some went laughing saying that she can't look at The Pariah anymore

cause she can't take it, it's way beyond funny,

Some went ROFL.

Some went saying that The Pariah look similar to a friend of hers.

Some just when OMG, The Pariah's killing her hair.

But yeah too bad, we can't say anything, I know I won't.

It's the Pariah hair, not mine. If she wanted to make her hair bald, I wouldn't care less.

Haha, go ruler hair :)

p/s : I'm just doing a friend a favor.

Didn't mean to harm or to hurt anyone :)

I swear that Nobody song is so catchy, me like.

Today--?

Today is just plain--boring.

I need to go out, PRONTO.

Sick.

so cute :)

I'm officially sick. Screw you fever.

And now I'm missing these peeps;

I miss Chelsea; Afah and Alex.

I wish I could turn back time and stop it right where I want it. Period.

thou shall not abandoned this blog;

pure awww-ness <3

Thou shall not abandoned this blog; so yeah I shall start writing crap; NOW.

It's official; our school holidays had already started;

and so far it's not that bad; it's just the beginning anyway.

So I better not grumble here and there first; since I'd be going out too.

News flash; we won't be having our Youth concert this year.

Screw you person; for not being here.

I was looking forward to it; since God knows when.

I didn't expect that it would turn out like this.

Heh; well things just doesn't turn out your way sometimes. So yeah--move on.

Friday Friday Friday the 13th.

I had to; and I must go down to school.

Why?

To pass Afah her rubix cube named Blackie; back to her and to pass Maxine's disc to Alex.

Rawr; now I have to wake up early. 11am is EARLY for me.

I know; I'm so LAZY :)

I've been tumblr-ing; facebook-ing but not blogging.

But no no no; I'm so not gonna delete this blog.

Currently am home alone :)

What should I do?

Officially over;

Oh no no no; I've been not updating for like days!

I've been such a lazy ass this few days; blame Facebook.

What happen these week; I'll type out the important ones only.

We watched The Bride Wars; and Hannah Montana in school;

I joined in Girl's Brigade; Interact Club and Bola Jaring;

I went watching Jenifer's Body together with the Sisterhood. They call themselves

the Sisterhood; don't ask me why; cause I don't know why.

I went on a boat ride; to be exact it's a sampan! To the other side of Kuching.

I cried on the last day of school.

I joined in 100; 200 meter and 4x400 meter for next year Sport's day.

I had a LOT of fun with Phong and Chelsea lately.

Oh oh; not forgetting Alex.

Afah had been missing every day; she's like no where to be found.

And now; I seriously got nothing to say :)

Oh oh; am sorry about my previous post; so seriously piss off.

Some person; seriously so immature.

A 5 year old kid is seriously matured. I'm not kidding.

Oh btw; I got myself a Tumblr; but am not gonna leave the link here.

You go figure; if you want to see it; ask me :)

School moments are officially over; I'm so gonna miss it.